on my way home i started daydreaming about my future..me doing hair and doing office stuff at the shelter ..maybe even some desktop publishing stuff like i used to do..and feeling like my life was perfect...so perfect that i literally started getting tears in my eyes. snap out of it! i feel like everything is falling into place and i couldn't be happier. and i'm in no hurry because i know in good time the right things will happen at the right time.
then i got to thinking about how completely grateful i am for my past. with out all my ups and downs i would NOT be where i am right now. i would not be WHO i am right now. how incredible is it that everything has come to this? this very exact moment RIGHT NOW!!
Or you might just call it weird.
Either way, it helps to remember it from time to time.
And while we're at it, lisa, sometimes you have to let go, to stake your claim. Be still, to move forward. Give, to receive. Cry, to feel the joy. Pretend, to make it real. Fake it, before you make it. And sometimes, oddly enough, you must first decide to feel their love, to find it was there all along.
things haven't been great the past few weeks. my hope was renewed in a conversation i had today with my new friend bryan. he works at the yoga shelter and he is (like everyone else there) so kind and nice. he was very easy to talk to...and i did much more talking than i expected to. he also talked a lot with me. about his experience, about training..lots of things. i feel soo much better and am excited to see where training takes me. it's a little scary but i know i'm ready....