so i dont forget

yesterday i woke up and felt really disoriented and drunk almost. i couldn't really see straight or focus or anything. tony had called (which ended up waking me up) around 11 am. i never sleep that long so that was strange too. he told me to look up some symptoms online so i did. while i was online i just all of a sudden started crying. which turned to screaming. which turned to a huge panic attack. i just freaked out. i was on the floor trying to call tony and i was just completely out of control. i was really scared because i had no idea what my body was doing. tony rushed home from work and i was still on the floor..covered in snot and drool. i was so embarrassed and didn't want my husband to see me like that. after a while he calmed me down and called my doctor...it ended up being that i was having prescription drug withdrawals. i had forgotten to take my medication saturday and sunday, and it really messed me up on monday. i dont think i have ever been that scared before. i thought i was going to die. i wasn't sure if i was having something major happen to me or not. i didn't realize you could have withdrawals from a prescription.

today i'm feeling much better. my forehead hurts...almost like it's bruised. i'm a little out of it but not really bad compared to yesterday! now that i know what happens i'm going to have to be extra careful to take my medicine when i'm supposed to so that doesn't happen again!


so far, 2008 has brought many new things.

1) this blog
2) my hair color
3) a car for my husband

well, that may not be too many things. regardless, i'm glad it's a new year. 2007 was beginning to wear on me. there were many stressful events that happened; particularly at the end of the year. not saying this year has been any better! hopefully things will settle into place shortly and i will have pressure lifted off my shoulders.

i really plan on using this as a way to keep track of my thoughts and events. i figured i needed something new (no more livejournal).

ps. i have been craving fried chicken today. i need a vegan recipe!