the past two weeks i have been slacking on my yoga. i went from working out seven days a week to four days a week, and it shows in my attitude.
so i'm back on it today. i worked out and if felt so good. and i feel so much more at ease. lets hope i start sleeping better again..
i feel like i've been so busy lately and the weather is starting to get bad and i'm really dreading winter. i can't seem to get warm at work or at home, and it makes me very uncomfortable.
and somehow someone got my credit card number and charged things and my cc company said they were taking care of it but they haven't taken one of the charges off of it...*sigh*. i guess i should call them...
i'm keeping my fingers crossed that today is going to be a good day..
today will be a good day.
11.30.2009
11.25.2009
11.17.2009
tired
so.
a couple weeks ago i did that gallbladder cleanse.
basically i've been feeling like crap ever since. the past two days i've had a sharp pain in my stomach. then at work yesterday i felt like i was going to pass out/barf. i got bad indigestion, and i felt like i had a fever.
i looked it up and it sounds like i am either trying to pass more gallstones or i have one stuck or something like that. i was nervous because i knew something wasn't right.
anyway, i talked to my doctor this morning and she seemed urgent and said that i needed to do another gallbladder cleanse now to get out whatever is stuck.
more nerves.
i dont wanna do it.
but i also dont want to keep feeling like this. i guess i have to finish what i started.
I WILL BE OK!
a couple weeks ago i did that gallbladder cleanse.
basically i've been feeling like crap ever since. the past two days i've had a sharp pain in my stomach. then at work yesterday i felt like i was going to pass out/barf. i got bad indigestion, and i felt like i had a fever.
i looked it up and it sounds like i am either trying to pass more gallstones or i have one stuck or something like that. i was nervous because i knew something wasn't right.
anyway, i talked to my doctor this morning and she seemed urgent and said that i needed to do another gallbladder cleanse now to get out whatever is stuck.
more nerves.
i dont wanna do it.
but i also dont want to keep feeling like this. i guess i have to finish what i started.
I WILL BE OK!
11.13.2009
today was amazing
i dont even have time to get into it right now, but so much greatness happened in my little world.
hopefully i'll have time to sit down this weekend and really get to appreciate all that has happened and all that i have.
this is really what love is!
hopefully i'll have time to sit down this weekend and really get to appreciate all that has happened and all that i have.
this is really what love is!
11.10.2009
11.09.2009
it's been a fulfilling past few weeks!
i dont even know where to begin!
i always hate seeing someone you haven't seen in a long time and trying to answer the question: so what's new?
there is always sooo much to say but really, never enough time to say it. plus i always figure (maybe it's my own fears) that the person doesn't really want to hear what all is new.
anyway, i've been crazy busy and i wish i had more time to blog. but really, i think enjoying life is just as good!
i ordered a couple cds from gregory page. normally i would just order through amazon or something. i guess it's just easier i dont know. although i would rather just support the "little guy". anyway, to my surprise he added notes to both of my cds:
i like when people you support add a personal touch. it makes it feel more like a friendly exchange rather than just buying something.
also, i completely forgot to mention this before. remember when i talked about starting to work out daily? well, i did it! i worked out every day from sept 23rd to oct 23rd.
the smiley faces mean i worked out. anyway, i've still been working out daily. and i feel great and my body is changing and i'm becoming stronger and more flexible. it's incredible, really. i'm very excited and proud of myself for sticking through with this. it's been a long road, but i finally found something i love to do. i've missed a couple days here and there..but for good reason. once for a cleanse i did and i wasn't feeling good that day, and a couple days when i got tattooed. (speaking of which, i finally got my hip piece done! and it looks amazing. i will have to take a photo.) so the plan is to continue what i'm doing. minus probably saturdays. i like to work out in the morning when i wake up and i get up way too early saturday to do that. either way, working out/yoga is in my life forever and that makes me happy!
ending on a sweet note...i bought some delicious looking raspberries at the store yesterday. they were huge and probably the best berries i have ever had.
yum. anyway, i probably have way more to write but i'm getting tired because work was busy today. i've done so much lately i think tomorrow i'm just going to relax. well, after i finish some paperwork for work. :)
i always hate seeing someone you haven't seen in a long time and trying to answer the question: so what's new?
there is always sooo much to say but really, never enough time to say it. plus i always figure (maybe it's my own fears) that the person doesn't really want to hear what all is new.
anyway, i've been crazy busy and i wish i had more time to blog. but really, i think enjoying life is just as good!
i ordered a couple cds from gregory page. normally i would just order through amazon or something. i guess it's just easier i dont know. although i would rather just support the "little guy". anyway, to my surprise he added notes to both of my cds:
i like when people you support add a personal touch. it makes it feel more like a friendly exchange rather than just buying something.also, i completely forgot to mention this before. remember when i talked about starting to work out daily? well, i did it! i worked out every day from sept 23rd to oct 23rd.
the smiley faces mean i worked out. anyway, i've still been working out daily. and i feel great and my body is changing and i'm becoming stronger and more flexible. it's incredible, really. i'm very excited and proud of myself for sticking through with this. it's been a long road, but i finally found something i love to do. i've missed a couple days here and there..but for good reason. once for a cleanse i did and i wasn't feeling good that day, and a couple days when i got tattooed. (speaking of which, i finally got my hip piece done! and it looks amazing. i will have to take a photo.) so the plan is to continue what i'm doing. minus probably saturdays. i like to work out in the morning when i wake up and i get up way too early saturday to do that. either way, working out/yoga is in my life forever and that makes me happy!
ending on a sweet note...i bought some delicious looking raspberries at the store yesterday. they were huge and probably the best berries i have ever had.
yum. anyway, i probably have way more to write but i'm getting tired because work was busy today. i've done so much lately i think tomorrow i'm just going to relax. well, after i finish some paperwork for work. :)
11.01.2009
i love fall...and other random things
this is pretty much how everything looks right now and i love it!
this place used to be a chinese restaurant. super gross and weird that it's obgyn now!
cory wanted me to do his makeup for halloween and gave me the following two pictures for inspiration.
this is what it ended up looking like:
i think it turned out really good! obviously not perfect but we were happy with it.and the same nite tony decided to shave his beard which is always fun. because things like this happen:
hope everyone had a happy halloween!
10.30.2009
gallbladder cleanse
so i'm in the process of doing a cleanse and i hate it.
six days of 32 oz of apple juice. maybe this doesn't sound bad to anyone else but i dont have any sweetener anymore. let alone any fruit (minus berries. and berries aren't that sweet). so my tummy has been a bit upset all week because of the added sugar i'm not used to.
then last nite i had to drink 2 6oz glasses of epsom salt water. which is probably the most revolting thing i have ever had in my mouth. finish that off with my usual 3oz olive oil mixed with oj and i was set! ugh. normally i can't get the oil down all that great but it was super easy after the epsom salts!
this morning upon waking at 7am i had to drink more epsom salts. then again at 9 i have my last glass. i dunno if i can force that last glass down...
my tummy is making weird noises. but i do think i passed gallstones. there were tons of pebble looking things. some as big as peas. i have heard after three of these cleanses it's possible to pass some that are golf ball sized! i really dont want to do another one they are so gross....
anyway i go at 11 to get my colonic and clear some more out. i have a feeling i'm not going to be feeling up to doing much today! :(
six days of 32 oz of apple juice. maybe this doesn't sound bad to anyone else but i dont have any sweetener anymore. let alone any fruit (minus berries. and berries aren't that sweet). so my tummy has been a bit upset all week because of the added sugar i'm not used to.
then last nite i had to drink 2 6oz glasses of epsom salt water. which is probably the most revolting thing i have ever had in my mouth. finish that off with my usual 3oz olive oil mixed with oj and i was set! ugh. normally i can't get the oil down all that great but it was super easy after the epsom salts!
this morning upon waking at 7am i had to drink more epsom salts. then again at 9 i have my last glass. i dunno if i can force that last glass down...
my tummy is making weird noises. but i do think i passed gallstones. there were tons of pebble looking things. some as big as peas. i have heard after three of these cleanses it's possible to pass some that are golf ball sized! i really dont want to do another one they are so gross....
anyway i go at 11 to get my colonic and clear some more out. i have a feeling i'm not going to be feeling up to doing much today! :(
10.29.2009
10.25.2009
is there a sign on my head?
does it say "attention! people from my past! please contact me to fuck with me once i've decided i'm over it!"
someone i decided to rid myself of months ago is trying to worm his way back into my life, apparently.
really, after months you think i'm going to be that easy? i'm through with letting people walk all over me.
someone i decided to rid myself of months ago is trying to worm his way back into my life, apparently.
really, after months you think i'm going to be that easy? i'm through with letting people walk all over me.
10.24.2009
more birthday thoughts
i met up with my family for dinner last night. this is the first "event" where my gpa was not there. the first birthday card i got without his signature. there was a few times i had to really stop myself from crying. i miss him so much.
other than that, my stomach is hating me today. and i still have one more day to go! the drinking and food and everything my body is not used to is starting to catch up with me. ugh.
i also start my gallbladder cleanse today. seven days. wish me luck!
i'm glad i dont have to work today. i will be halloween costume shopping, and resting up to prepare for the fun tonight!
ps. i love my friends and family. everyone has made me feel so special these past few days.
other than that, my stomach is hating me today. and i still have one more day to go! the drinking and food and everything my body is not used to is starting to catch up with me. ugh.
i also start my gallbladder cleanse today. seven days. wish me luck!
i'm glad i dont have to work today. i will be halloween costume shopping, and resting up to prepare for the fun tonight!
ps. i love my friends and family. everyone has made me feel so special these past few days.
10.23.2009
it's my birthday
i'm officially 30.
there have been mixed feelings this week. partially because a certain someone that i used to be close to told me that things would be different. unfortunately we dont talk anymore. which is why there are mixed feelings...
regardless, my send-off into the 30s was incredible.
one of my clients/friends asked me out for drinks on wednesday. she's really awesome. we had a ton of fun. she is just like me but much prettier. so glad i decided to go!
last night i went to the mixx and then to dirty martini with a small group. the killer flamingos announced my birthday SEVERAL times so everyone kept coming up and getting me drinks so that was fun. they dedicated songs to me too! i couldn't even begin to get into details of the night but i'm so grateful for my friends for making me feel so special.
i'll be meeting up for lunch with some people at seva!!!!! can't wait! then for dinner meeting my bro and the rest of the family. drinks at the best bar ever (ashleys). i hope my body can handle more beer! tomorrow i'm going out too. four nights in a row is going to be rough!
there have been mixed feelings this week. partially because a certain someone that i used to be close to told me that things would be different. unfortunately we dont talk anymore. which is why there are mixed feelings...
regardless, my send-off into the 30s was incredible.
one of my clients/friends asked me out for drinks on wednesday. she's really awesome. we had a ton of fun. she is just like me but much prettier. so glad i decided to go!
last night i went to the mixx and then to dirty martini with a small group. the killer flamingos announced my birthday SEVERAL times so everyone kept coming up and getting me drinks so that was fun. they dedicated songs to me too! i couldn't even begin to get into details of the night but i'm so grateful for my friends for making me feel so special.
i'll be meeting up for lunch with some people at seva!!!!! can't wait! then for dinner meeting my bro and the rest of the family. drinks at the best bar ever (ashleys). i hope my body can handle more beer! tomorrow i'm going out too. four nights in a row is going to be rough!
10.14.2009
10.13.2009
10.09.2009
wow
pretty much everything sucks today.
i try very hard to stay positive and optimistic and happy. most days are easy. some are harder than others. today it's impossible.
no matter how hard i've tried things are just not going my way.
and yes, i do know that other people have it worse than i do. don't think that i don't know this.
but i did not need to deal with a certain assistant giving me shit two days in a row, when she should have just been doing her job. i did not need to deal with a certain coworker giving me A RIDICULOUS amount of shit because i called in sick wednesday. i didn't have to deal with the same person trying to talk me out of cutting or coloring my hair. (for the record, i do not understand why everyone at work seems to think i care what they think i should do with my hair. everyone has insisted on arguing with me lately (at work). i did not need to deal with a douchebag asshole at the bar talking shit about me because he is an insecure slut. i shouldn't have to deal with my finally nice looking skin breaking out (when i'm almost 30, ahem). and i definitely didn't need to deal with frogwaard dying. tony is going to be so upset. and i am not looking forward to being the one to break the news.
i just want today to be over with. i'm sick of crying, really.
i try very hard to stay positive and optimistic and happy. most days are easy. some are harder than others. today it's impossible.
no matter how hard i've tried things are just not going my way.
and yes, i do know that other people have it worse than i do. don't think that i don't know this.
but i did not need to deal with a certain assistant giving me shit two days in a row, when she should have just been doing her job. i did not need to deal with a certain coworker giving me A RIDICULOUS amount of shit because i called in sick wednesday. i didn't have to deal with the same person trying to talk me out of cutting or coloring my hair. (for the record, i do not understand why everyone at work seems to think i care what they think i should do with my hair. everyone has insisted on arguing with me lately (at work). i did not need to deal with a douchebag asshole at the bar talking shit about me because he is an insecure slut. i shouldn't have to deal with my finally nice looking skin breaking out (when i'm almost 30, ahem). and i definitely didn't need to deal with frogwaard dying. tony is going to be so upset. and i am not looking forward to being the one to break the news.
i just want today to be over with. i'm sick of crying, really.
birthday jitters
two weeks from today and i turn 30.
up until today i was excited for this.
today i want to go back in time.
everything changes when you get older. maybe i'm just not ready.
i can't really describe it. i just...don't like it.
up until today i was excited for this.
today i want to go back in time.
everything changes when you get older. maybe i'm just not ready.
i can't really describe it. i just...don't like it.
10.06.2009
10.04.2009
starting a new blog
please check out my new photo blog! i've been inspired and i hope maybe i can inspire someone else too!
365 days of grateful
365 days of grateful
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